Title: Chasm

Title: I Loathe Myself. Click the photo to read more into it.

Title: Intrusive Thoughts. Before I ever started taking antidepressants and seeking therapy, I was trying to understand why I was in this mental state and why couldn’t I get any better. I didn’t know how to face it. The intrusive thoughts I would get became a daily inconvenience and distracted me from anything I was doing. I would just sit there with my thoughts plaguing my mind.

Title: Avarice. The difference between shame and guilt is the difference between ‘I am bad’ and ‘I did something bad.’ We feel guilty for what we do. We feel shame for what we are. Given an opportunity, shame will mask itself as your best friend, and it will convince you that it is only there to help you.

Title: Ink. We live in a society of toxic masculinity where boys and men have to man up and not show emotion--to stop crying. As of 2015, two-thirds of worldwide suicides are committed by men. Do not bottle up your emotions. Do not close yourself off to those who care for you. It is ok to cry, for joy comes after sadness.

Title: The Curtain's Call. Once in a while, I would get intrusive thoughts about my abilities as a creative. It worsens when having to deal with my Major Depression Disorder. The imposter syndrome starts to overtake me when I’m at a loss, I imagine the curtains coming down from where I’m at and that’s it. That would be the end of my dreams and desires for my one and only passion.

Title: Manifestation When I was 17, at one of my darkest points of my life, I began to see a dark figure everywhere I looked. It even appeared in my dreams. This was a time when someone dear to me was consumed in their substance abuse. I always had a chair propped under my door, and I was scared of the possible physical abuse on me that came after it. Click the photo to read the rest of my story on Instagram